I never go on here anymore.
Life has been too busy.
Today sucked, I've been sick for the past week, I'm afraid of failing, everything is going wrong, I'm lost, I feel like my friends think I'm stupid, I'm just miserable.
I think everything was fine before I got sick last week, and ever since I've felt nothing but negative energy. I don't know what to think about it, or how to get rid of it. I'm tired of feeling this way.
I'm afraid I'm going to fail the math test I have to take tomorrow that I missed on Monday, and I can't afford to fail it. I failed my bio test for sure, and that's just the worst. My friends always talk about how they feel no sympathy for people who can't go to college, or how people who go to community college are jokes. I don't think I can afford college. My parents are so against loans that I feel it'd be impossible to get one. I can't find any scholarships.
I'm really down on myself right now, and I really, really, really don't know what to do. I'm lost. I feel like everyone thinks I'm stupid and ignorant and annoying. I probably am. I'm tired of being pushed around and treated as if I'm irrelevant.
This is probably karma. I've been a terrible person. I'm surrounded by negative people who have no problem making fun of others, and it's hard to get out of that habit. I try, but it's hard. Those negative people are my friends, and there's almost nothing else wrong with them, but that's still a huge wrong in my book.
I really, really, really, really cannot stand my life at this moment. I feel like I have no one to talk to, because I'm afraid to talk to anyone. I hate listing my problems off to people I know. I feel like they'll judge me and just make fun of me. It hurts. I want someone to talk to, but the only person I felt comfortable talking to moved to a different country and we never talk anymore.
I just don't know what to do, where to go. I'm 100% lost, and right now, I have no faith in myself, or anyone else.
